Monday, December 21, 2009

"Please! A li'l is ok.", said she

and these dreams broken mattered not more than a li'l.
Yes, a li'l is ok. It always is...
In my boulevard of broken dreams.

Eating GEMS and dreaming about...

leaving on a jet plane...
Well, a jet train most probably. Actually, any train. Any train which takes me 850 miles away from here!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

This Secret Affair

wasn't meant for Ms. Nosy's indulgence!

Monday, December 7, 2009

850 Miles

You've always been some 850 miles away from me. But since I've known about you I've always felt your presence. It's like you're a part of me, 850 miles within me. You've been the air I breathe, 850 miles around me. And when our li'l accident happened, my mind raced 850 miles in a second, reaching for you and surrounding you to get consumed. By you.

And ever since these rapid lines of contact became my lifelines, everytime your presence ceases to flow through them, to reach me and fill my mind, I feel uneasy. Accustomed to moving at 850miles/sec, I suddenly feel still. I feel still. I feel unusually still, uncomfortably still. Like those 850 miles just snapped and now I don't know where we are nor where I am. I feel afar. I feel like I am 850 miles away from you.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

In my religion...

science is the god and art is the goddess; to know, to think, to do, to create is worship; and love is the highest worship, prayer and sacrifice.

Friday, November 6, 2009

We met by accident.

The WHO defines accident as an "unpremeditated event resulting in recognisable damage."

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


"I don't know if mama was right or if it's Lieutenant Dan. I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze. But I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. But I miss you, Jenny. If there's anything you need, I won't be far away."

-Forrest Gump

Sunday, October 18, 2009

There's a feeling of calmness.

And after all the agitation that my mind has been getting high on, this feeling of tranquility seems absurdly incredible.

So incredible that my mind is trying hard to convince me that beneath this calmness is a raging storm of undercurrents.

Maybe, being calm in spite of the undercurrents is the trick!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

This time every year...


Flashing lightbulbs,flickering flames, strong undercurrents of mixed emotions and the nudges of that familiar feeling that haunts me every Divali.

Flash! Hmmm..
Enjoying the company of these lights, sounds and emotions with some work to keep me busy.

Schoolmates, fooling around and a few fireworks.


Monday, October 12, 2009


Amidst the idiosyncracies of a conceited professor and the servility of my colleagues, I worried about you.
I love you. Always.
Touch wood.

Saturday, October 10, 2009


Stressed nerves.
May flare up at the slightest provocation.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

I depart as..

the one-wheeled cart,
the one-sided conversation
and the one-hearted love,
fall apart.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Waking up to love is like...

undreaming infinity.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Nociceptive disEntanglement

Entangled. Entwined. Like a pair of confused strings.
It aches. A constant confounding pain clouding the senses.

Pull away too quickly just to re-entangle the kinks.
And pull harder to snap free.
It will hurt. A sudden lethal heartbleed.

Be unmoving. Still as silence.
As I slowly disentangle myself from around you.
It's felt. Like a slow blade on my half benumbed skin.

Sunday, September 27, 2009


I: Everyone thinks you're crazy!
I: I'm not!
I: Even I think you're crazy.
I: I'm not. I'm just an undampened oscillating pendulum.
I: That, is crazy enough.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

The Love Potion by Dr. Devil's Laboratories.

I sit idle. I indulge in love.
I sit idle. The devil indulges in me.
And while the devil works. I sit idle.

And this is what he comes up with...

The Love Potion® by Dr. Devil's Labs

Do you feel you're too strong? Hard working?
Craving for some drama? Want to lose-r yourself in love?

The new Love Potion® by Dr. Devil is exactly what you need!!

Weakens your nerves!
Loosens your muscles!
Fills your heart with mush!
Clouds your brain with pink smoke!
Then makes you tumble down the roller coaster ride until you crash into a million pieces!!
Sounds like the perfect loser fantasy for your craving mind?
Order the Love Potion® now!!


¿Quieres solucionarlo?
Borrarlo de tu vida.
De perros amores.

Friday, September 18, 2009

lessSleep Nights

I sleep on the sofa. She sleeps in the bedroom. Love dies a slow death in the corridor.

Thursday, September 17, 2009


If, for being together, there has to be pain.
Let pain be.

If, for being together, we have to hurt.
Let me hurt.
Hurt me.

Together, be.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Who is I in love with?

It's funny how different people think I is in love with different people.

For instance, A seems to think that I is in love with J, J seems to think that I is in love with M, M knows that I is in love with M but has doubts about A and J. D thinks that I is hallucinating and is in love with Æ who's an entity of I's imagination. N is under the false impression that I is in love with A. N also cautions I that I might fall crazily in love with any pretty letter if given a chance and most certainly enslave and screw I-self up!

I? I thinks. I thinks a lot. I thinks that I is in love with M but isn't quite sure who M is. Moreover, I also jumps in and out of love with M, so, I is pretty much confused about M. I is affected by certain other letters too but is quite sure that it's not in love. I also fancies many other pretty letters and is ever ready to fall in love all over again. But can I love another after M? I doesn't know. M makes I think.

Given the amount of confusion that this bloody love has caused, I is sure about one thing. I hates love.

A li'l.


All the letters above might be a reference to someone real. If it's Ur initials, then it might be U. Given the confusion that love has created, the accuracy of this account is doubtful. Reader discretion advised.

I can't think straight

I'm thinking curves and tangents at every other point on them.

Stuck between two erratic forces pulling in opposite directions, I'm oscillating along these lines.

I'm getting off this train.

Where am I?

Am I in love or out of it?
I don't know.
I'm out of sleep. At 5am in my bed.

Dogged Love

Love's such a bitch which doggedly persists!